The Speed of 2010

time is a concept.

really. it's not a concrete thing.

it's fluid.

This year. This one, as in, the last 28 days (isn't that a movie about zombies? or is it rehab? curious that I chose the 28th day to blog) have been moving at two very distinct paces.

s. l. o. w.

and

fast

I started a new position at the job that I don't love. So, there's that. I'm now working 40 hours a week again. So I can worry less about being able to pay my rent. (I said less. I did not say stop worrying).

and I have some new friends. It's weird how different my social landscape has been since New Years eve. New adventures. New things. Newness.

I commented on Facebook and twitter, that the number #1 trending topic was itampon. (not ipad, itampon) and today it's Salinger. or at least this hour.

and that made me think about time. because yesterday afternoon everything was ipad. last night everything was the state of the union. this morning was Zinn. this afternoon Salinger.

spinning. trending changing by the hour.

time. see what I mean? fast.

and yet, when I'm on the elipitcal machine, time is s l o w.

and when I'm sitting in the office.

and...

something is in the works for me. maybe. a massively huge, possibly, gigantic change in my life. a move that, well, it's big.

and it all started Sunday night. and picked up momentum, until now. and the news, the officialness, the whatever, could take six weeks. and so, sunday until today, whole new world. new mind set, new possibilities, new anxiousness. newness.. and yet...sputter. stall.

wait.

and wait.

s l o w