Thursday, September 21, 2006

and now back to our regularly scheduled programming

So ... back to school.

and once again ... a word from our sponsors:

I'm taking a class with Sarah Levine, one of the more popular professors at the art institute. Her classes fill up fast and are hard to come by, it was luck that there was an opening and I slid in. It's hard to tell this early, but I think she's worth the hype:


I'm also taking a class titiled "Travel Writing" The professor is Anne Calcagno. She is quite enthusiastic, which is good because this is an evening class, and regardless of how exciting the material, it's hard to pay attention when you are sitting in a classroom at 8pm.


And this semester I have two graduate advisors. The first is Mary Cross, who I took a class with last semester. She's a poet, essayist, fiction writer and also an enthusiastic professor. Plus, she digs my work. So that helps.

And I am doing advising with Beth Nugent. She's another professor that is extremely popular and I'd heard great things about her. She seems to really dive into your work and is really invested in advising her students. When I left our advising session I almost felt like I just left a therapy session and I was feeling motivated to get some writing done.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Remembering an old friend and co-worker


Patrick Sean Murphy


Sometimes, you learn the most about someone from the silence. From what people who knew them best do not say. With Patrick Sean Murphy, they don"t talk about his job much, as successful as he was.

No, those closest to him emphasize other pieces of his life. Because he did. They all say he had three loves: his family, basketball and fishing.

Summer weekends at the family cottage in Beach Haven, N.J., would find Mr. Murphy, 36, fishing on the 20-footer named Nothin" But Net. Because, though only 5- foot-9, he could drop a basketball into a net without hitting the rim.

Mr. Murphy, a vice president at Marsh & McLennan, formed basketball leagues. He was a regular at Knicks games. He even taught his daughter, Maggie, only 2 years old, to dribble (with both hands).

But he wasn"t dogmatic. His son, Sean, 4, somehow wasn"t charmed by basketball, so father and son would find projects. They"d fix things around the house in Millburn, N.J. They"d search Internet sites for information about trucks, Sean"s passion, and Mr. Murphy would bookmark them.

"He enjoyed his success," said his wife, Vera. "But Patrick had a motto. He"d say he worked to live. He didn"t live to work."

(Copyright (c) 2001 by The New York Times Co. Reprinted by permission.)

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

irish blogging to come...

i will soon post:

the dogs of Ballyvaughn

collaborating ... otherwise known as ... the making of tron 4

realworld- county clare :when writers stop being nice and start being real

all the things i love about ireland

all the passive aggressive ways the irish tell you to Feck off

aran islands...falling in love with ireland again

the cows of county clare, the cows of innis mor and innis main

synge'ing on a soft day...



...or something of the like... the burren is wild country ...and for this city girl it's been an adventure not having things like the internet, a tv, a working ipod, or even a hot shower.

still and all ... i love the craic in ireland.

where's she been?


and here: in Ballyvaughan

What she be saying?





Where have I been?

the burren college of art ....

(not my pics btw ...)




















i am having issues with the internet connection in county clare ...and with blogger ...so bare with me... will post more later

Monday, July 17, 2006

11:20 PM on a Thursday night in Dublin



Yes, that's 11:20pm. Still some light in the sky... this was taken at the top of my street

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A few things to note

I've met only one Patrick.

Seen only a couple redheads.

Gaelic is not "Irish". There is a separate Irish language; it's one of THE most ancient languages.

The Irish call soccer soccer, rugby rugby and football, well they have their own sport that they call football.

Policemen/cops are referred to as guards.

Your home is your "gaff"

If you are drunk, you are "locked" (let's just say that the Dubliners, the ones from my office in particular, have gotten me quite locked)

After a night of being "locked" you will be knackered the next day (tired).

The guide books were not kidding about the buying of "rounds", get in there early as soon as possible to do your duty.

Apparently I’m a “bird.”

Neighbors know neighbors, even in Dublin.

Again, can’t say it enough, Dubliners are lovely.

* I promise PROMISE that I will start posting photographs...next post.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Craic

Definitions of craic on the Web:

a Craic'ing good time ...otherwise known as my first irish week

Ireland so far …

My challenges have been:

  • dialing the phone. (sometimes you add an 01, sometimes a 0 in front of a number)
  • placement of the shift key on the keyboard
  • I keep saying dollars instead of euros
  • Standing on the correct side of the street when attempting to hail a cab
  • Crossing the street (knowing which way to look to check for oncoming traffic)
  • Pronouncing things in a way that the Irish understand me (for instance my apartment is on a street called Fitzwilliam Quay - I keep wanting to pronounce it Kwaay…the Irish pronounce it Key)

What I've done ….

When I arrived on Wednesday …It was beautiful weather outside, sunny and in the 70's. But when I got to my apartment, I fell asleep. My plan was to get the lay of the land in my neighborhood, work out the walk to the office, and do a minimum amount of grocery shopping. Instead, I got to the apartment, and then feel asleep. So of course, didn't sleep much(if any) on Wednesday night. I did, through a serious of flipping through the local phone book and all my guide books realize that my apartment is "off the map" at least in terms of tourist maps. But I managed to figure out where I was off the map and found in the phone book a Chinese restaurant around the corner from my apartment and I ordered dinner.

Thursday, I went to the office, as I suspected there were both expecting me and not prepared for me. Everyone was charming in the office, and when explaining that I would be here for a few weeks and then taking a course out west, the frequent response was "brilliant." The Irish have proven to be quite lovely so far. An SAIC friend (cc) was in town for the night. We had a tasty Italian meal in a charming restaurant off of Merrion Square and then went to a pub, which is apparently frequented by more Dubliners than tourists (according to the cab driver- Dubliners go there for "a wee bit of drink and a wee bit of music"). We anticipated lively Irish jig type of music, instead it was rather melancholy and slow. On my ride home that evening, my cab driver shared with me his love life whoas and gave me instructions on what areas I shouldn't walk though at night…he also pointd out that his "mad exgirlfriend" kept calling his mobile on the cab ride, in a 7 minute ride, she called 10 times. I gave him love advice, and a big tip as he dropped me off. And when I came home, I actually did sleep a bit, but not as much as I needed.

Friday, went to the office. Struggled again with the shift key, and dialing out … but getting the hang of it. Then came home, took a nap, discovered a web site that you can order delivery from (yeah the internet) …ordered Indian food, watched Irish TV (which from what I can tell is a lot of BBC shows, dramas of various sorts (as in the soap opera family), American shows (a season late), and there is even a channel that from time to time has shows that are all Gaelic, and more than once it's taken me several minutes to realize that it isn't just the heavy Irish brogue that I can't understand, it's another language) I then fell asleep for the night sometime around 1am, and slept til 12:45 the next afternoon.

Saturday, hadn't expected to sleep away the morning, and I woke up to the type of weather I had been expecting, wet and grey. I walked around and found a spot to buy some coffee and yogurt and dish detergent and all that stuff. And then I ventured out into the city. I read, in more than one guidebook, about a literary pub crawl, and according to the website, it was a good activity for women traveling alone. So I took a deep breath, walked into the pub that was the starting point, and solo, bought a ticket and joined the pub crawl.

It was fun. The crawlers were a mix of americans, candadians, dubliners, aussies, even a norweigan (who used to live in new zealand) the Norwegian (or Viking as our guide referred to her) was a charming woman in her fifties, recently divorced, traveling ireland on her own because she has always wanted to visit ireland and had no friends who were interested in coming. She and I pal'd around on the crawl, and at the end of the crawl ended up in a pub with the dubliners from the crawl who kept buying us round after round of guinness and not letting us return the favor and buy them drinks. They were lovely and entertaining and we were in the pub past last call when finally we declared a cease fire …it was time to head home.

Sunday, I wasn't as hungover as I worried I would be, although I was a tad rough…. and CC was back in the city for the day/night. We ventured out for lunch, of course not before I took us in the wrong direction (and forget to bring the map with me) as we walked the Ballsbridge nieghborhood. After lunch I took her to one of the pubs we hit on the crawl, one that Osar Wilde and Samuel Beckett frequented while students at Trinity. Watching the World Cup, outside the US, is an experience. Everywhere people were draped with either french or italian flags. I'm not one for watching "football" but even I got caught up in the exitement of the game. We had sort of arbitrarily decided to route for France. Which seemed like a good idea, up until the end …and in particular up till the controversial head butt, and were genuinely disapponted when they lost. Although we both agreed the Italians had more hotties on their team.

CC left me this monday morning to fly back to the states …and here I am … back at the office, mastering the shift key, and struggling to make calls outside the office….

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

leaving on jet plane


It's finally here...the day I leave for Ireland.
My new passport didn't arrive until Monday.
I didn't pack until this afternoon.
But ... here I am at Ohare, waiting patiently for my bargained priced back of the plane window seat.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Little Black Curly Hair

Sometimes I think of something that I want to write about and I make a note in a journal.
I imagine it's kind of like m.lady's post its and notes that she has stuffed in pockets.
Some are phrases that came to me or just a word to remind me of something or possible titles to stories.

Here's some notes I've written recently:

Life on an Ant Farm

Touch

The night I was rejected

Journey songs at Happy Hour

He waves like he is gesturing "Come here"

Breaking up and ex-friends

Midgets on the train.

And my most recent jotted down phrase…. Little black curly hair.

I laughed when I read that. I was on the el and looked like a lunatic. But of course it reminded me of what I was going to write about.

Last Thursday night I spent five hours sitting on the runway at LaGuardia. That does not include taxing time or flight time, that's the time that the plane pulled over and waited…and waited…and waited. There were storms in Ohio and Pennsylvania so all traffic headed west was blocked.

When I first sat in my tightly compact window seat, I noticed, lovingly resting just under the window, a little black curly hair. I recoiled in horror. But there is no room to recoil in a couch-budget-airline sit with a larger than average business man sitting next you.

I'm a fidgeter. In my defense, it's not because I can't just sit still. It's because I have arthritic joints (I've always had them - since I was a toddler). So when I am sitting in an airplane seat, I cross my right leg over my left, then ten minutes later, my left over my right, I try sitting crosslegged, I try sitting with my legs not crossed, I shift and move every five to ten minutes.

I read a great book and for a short time was engrossed in it and almost oblivious to the sitting still in an airless can for hours. Then, being attention span challenged, I lost interest in the great book. And my hips had locked into an arthritically painful position. I closed my book and tried to strectch out my legs straight and raise myself off the seat. Then dropped quickly once I remembered the little black curly hair. The larger than average sized business man next me turned his head slightly, trying discreetly to look at me as he wondered what the hell kind of spasm I was having.

I was relieved, and repulsed to see that the little black curly hair was still in tact, waiting patiently in it's spot just below the window.

I flipped through a magazine.

I called my stepmom, whispering in to my cell phone, trying as hard as possible to have the semblance of a private conversation. While on the phone, I curled towards the window, watching other planes roll down the runway, while we continued to stand still.

When I got off the phone, I checked again, it was still there, the little black curly hair.

The two men in my row stood up and went to the bathroom. I decided it was probably best that I go then as well. Plus my stomach was crying out since I hadn't eaten since lunch time. The bathrooms exhibited the strain of being used frequently over the several hours we sat on the runway. I asked the flight attendant if there was ANY food to eat. Between bites of her peanuts she said No. I eyed her, and then the bag of peanuts and said, There's NOTHING to eat? With her mouthful she said Nothing.

I crawled back into my window seat. There it was, the little black curly hair, hanging on for dear life just below the window.

Finally, finally the plane took off.

I was able to get back into my book. I distractedly read for the rest of the flight. Until right before we landed. I turned off the readers light, plugged into my Ipod and listened to Wilco while we landed. The lights came up, the people sprang off their feet only to stand still, cramped into place until finally we could deplane. As I pulled my bag out from under the seat, I looked again, and there it still was. The little black curly hair. It silently bid me farewell.

I was finally home.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Like an old friend.


I first read Sandra Cisernos (Woman Hollering Creek) two years ago. I couldn't believe I'd never read her before, or that I hadn't even heard of her writing. She's pretty amazing. This week I picked up a copy of House on Mango Street, and wow. Now I remember how incredible her writing is …

Her's an example of what she can do:
My Name

In English my name means hope. In Spanish it means too many letters. It means sadness, it means waiting. It is like the number nine. A muddy color. It is the Mexican records my father plays on Sunday mornings when he is shaving, songs like sobbing.

It was my great-grandmother's name and now it is mine. She was a horse woman too, born like me in the Chinese year of the horse--which is supposed to be bad luck if you're born female-but I think this is a Chinese lie because the Chinese, like the Mexicans, don't like their women strong.

My great-grandmother. I would've liked to have known her, a wild, horse of a woman, so wild she wouldn't marry. Until my great-grandfather threw a sack over her head and carried her off. Just like that, as if she were a fancy chandelier. That's the way he did it.

And the story goes she never forgave him. She looked out the window her whole life, the way so many women sit their sadness on an elbow. I wonder if she made the best with what she got or was she sorry because she couldn't be all the things she wanted to be. Esperanza. I have inherited her name, but I don't want to inherit her place by the window.

At school they say my name funny as if the syllables were made out of tin and hurt the roof of your mouth. But in Spanish my name is made out of a softer something, like silver, not quite as thick as sister's name Magdalena--which is uglier than mine. Magdalena who at least- -can come home and become Nenny. But I am always Esperanza. would like to baptize myself under a new name, a name more like the real me, the one nobody sees. Esperanza as Lisandra or Maritza or Zeze the X. Yes. Something like Zeze the X will do.

----
"as if the syllables were made out of tin and hurt the roof of your mouth." I love that phrase …

Go read her today …read her now!!!

Monday, June 26, 2006

There's no place like home

New York will always be New York and will always feel like home.

But being back in Chicago …well it's good to be home. The Second City is now my home, and New York will always be my second home.

Went sailing on Saturday with my Aunt, two uncles, a family friend and my cousin. Sunday, had brunch with friends, and then cleaned my apartment listening to the music and cheers of the pride parade … I knew I lived in Boystown but didn't realize the parade went right down my corner.

Still and all … there's no place like home.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

commintment phobia?


Last night, I walked from 40th and b'way to 30th and 3rd.

Ten blocks south and 4 avenues east.

I realized that for me, New York is crammed with memories.

Old jobs, bad dates, drunken happy hours.

I realized … from 2000 till 2005 ...I worked for three different companies, in four different offices.

Went on three blind dates and one (gasp) match.com date.

Had two "relationships."

Had numerous undefined quasi-dating somethings.

Collected unemployment two different summers.

Lived in two apartments.

Drank in thousands of bars, ate in hundreds (thousands?) of restaurants.

Kissed …how many boys?

Made a priceless number of friends

The only consistent thing in my life has been my cell phone number.

Is that circumstance? Or my commitment phobia that the only thing consistent in my life is something that is wireless and mobile?

More on the 6: Mole people (otherwise known as anyone who rides the subway)

When a good friend moved to New York (two years before I did) she said she was amazed by how New Yorkers would exit the subways and just know what direction they were going in…they were mole people.

Riding my old commute … I've noticed …I'm a mole person …even after having moved ten months ago … I know how many cars from the front of the train I need to be so that when I get off at Grand Central … I'm in front of the stairs to go down to the 7 train ..and when I get on the 7 train…I get on two cars from the front …so that when I exit, I'm at the right exit that puts me on the corner of my office building.

I didn't even realize that I was methodically choosing which subway car to ride.

Of course, upon reflection, I do it on the el also … if I get on the last car on the brown line … I'm at the exit at the Merchandise Mart stop that puts me on the corner of Kinzie …and therefore down the block from my office.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

on the 6











i lived on the upper east side from August 2000 until August 2005. And before that, i still spent a substianial amount of time on the east side (upper and and especially lower).

there were days (weeks) i felt like i was on the 6 train more than anywhere else in the city.

it's been a bit of a trip down memory lane this week, riding the 4/5/6 into grand central.

I LOVE New York ... but the El makes for a more pleasant view...

The best kind of conference calls...

I'm in New York this week ... working from my old stomping grounds in our new york office. I just had the best conference call..the kind when you call in and your co-worker/friend in California is on the call, and your manager who is sits right next to you is on the call and you spend ten minutes goofing off and gossiping waiting for everyone else that needs to be on the call ... only to be stood up.

It's like going to class and seeing a note that class has been cancelled.

Proud to be an Episcopalian this week:

ABC News: Episcopalians Reject Ban on Gay Bishops

NYTIMES: Woman is named Episcopalian Leader


Monday, June 19, 2006

Dictionary.com/Word of the Day Archive/transmogrify

This sounds like a made up word:

Dictionary.com/Word of the Day Archive/transmogrify

transmogrify \trans-MOG-ruh-fy\, transitive verb:
To change into a different shape or to transform, often with bizarre or humorous effect.

A washing machine transmogrified into a guitar.
-- Adrian Searle, "Come, friendly pigeons", The Guardian, March 16, 2000

For the impulsive sin of turning to look back at the funereal pyre of Sodom and Gomorrah, Lot's wife is transmogrified into a pillar of salt as she flees the inferno.
-- Elizabeth Wurtzel, Bitch: In Praise of Difficult Women

Roast chicken is still roast chicken whether you label it haute cuisine, bourgeois cuisine or country cooking; even calling it "poulet roti" will not transmogrify this simple bird.
-- Jacques Pepin, "The Chicken Dinner, Both Humble and Noble", New York Times, January 4, 1989